We process much in our dream time, which can be directed and focussed for reaching our alchemical manifestations, especially with the help of Esogetic Herbal Dream Oil and guided dream work.
It was good I released any attachment to outcome because what did manifest for my new living space was beyond anything that I was contemplating and aware of at the time!
(From January 2009)
In this dream I was with my family, my mom, step dad, my sons, somewhere on a trip. We were gathering our things to leave, and somewhere on the trip, either found by me or given to me by one of the sons, I had acquired a goldfish. He was currently in a makeshift fish tank in the cabin and I wondered how I was going to take him with us when we left. Someone suggested a newspaper bag, so I thought that would be helpful. I filled the bag with his water from the tank, he escaped and was on the table out of the water, looking at me. The boys were laughing. I put the bag near the fish and he hopped right in. In my mind ran concerns regarding his being able to breathe in the bag. For some reason there wasn't enough water in the bag, and the fish was indicating, by jumping out again, that it was not to his liking. Then, for some reason, I filled up the bag with milk, thinking this way the fish could have nourishment while it traveled with us. This was not a happy answer for the fish, who, by the way, was more of a Dr. Seuss goldfish than a regular boring goldfish. In the milk it was standing on its tail, with its head out of the milk, almost shaking his head "no". I emptied the milk, and refilled with tank water, in yet another bag, this one a bread bag. There was lots of water, and I was trying to find the balance between air and water, not sure how long this was to be his home. I breathed some of my breath into the bag, with the hope of finding that right balance.
Eventually my dream went on to the next scene and I don't know if I ever got it right for that fish.
What if that fish is me? I can be a Dr. Seuss goldfish for a moment. Here I am wondering where my home is going to be when my house sells. Which bag (or home) is going to be just right as I "travel" with my sons and parents in this stage of our lives? Which one provides the most breathing room, the most nourishment, enough of my own environment and happiness? Interesting to note my own guessing game and seeming inability to figure it out and provide just the right environment for the "fish". This is the planner in me, to which I have been bringing more and more balance. I don't know the answers, all I can do is trust that the right situation is manifesting in the perfect timing, as it always has, in spite of all of my past planning and trying to make it work.
I am open to the Grace of the Universe in this transitional situation, and am excited to see what results come about. I know that the happiest answer for all concerned is manifesting and we all live in joy and great connection.
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Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Winds of Change and the Importance of Letting Go
This was written several years ago while I was in the process of releasing the old beliefs, thought patterns, and more, discovering greater depths of self-compassion, in order to make room for the new and transformed.
I feel somewhat unsettled as the wind is howling and the trees are swaying violently outside. The sky is dark with gray with foreboding. Maybe it’s stir craziness I’m experiencing from having been in bed for the last week with a strange illness that can’t seem to decide what it is, and is taking its time taking its leave. I’m pretty sick and tired of being sick and tired. I know, well, have learned, in the past, that when I get sick enough to knock me out of commission as I’ve been, my life is about to change. It’s a cocooning of sorts, a reorganization. I am definitely very happy with my life in this place to where it has evolved, and am open to change for even better, on whatever level. This said, this doesn’t feel to me like a cocooning on a personal level, it definitely feels more of a stepping back from the humanity and planetary level. After a conversation with my mother earlier today, who is also suffering from this strange malady, I realize that perhaps the Universe is telling us to take cover, lay low for a bit, perhaps...rest up.
I feel somewhat unsettled as the wind is howling and the trees are swaying violently outside. The sky is dark with gray with foreboding. Maybe it’s stir craziness I’m experiencing from having been in bed for the last week with a strange illness that can’t seem to decide what it is, and is taking its time taking its leave. I’m pretty sick and tired of being sick and tired. I know, well, have learned, in the past, that when I get sick enough to knock me out of commission as I’ve been, my life is about to change. It’s a cocooning of sorts, a reorganization. I am definitely very happy with my life in this place to where it has evolved, and am open to change for even better, on whatever level. This said, this doesn’t feel to me like a cocooning on a personal level, it definitely feels more of a stepping back from the humanity and planetary level. After a conversation with my mother earlier today, who is also suffering from this strange malady, I realize that perhaps the Universe is telling us to take cover, lay low for a bit, perhaps...rest up.
I can only surmise or speculate that this may have something to do with the recent solar flares, with which their Earth arrival corresponded precisely with the onset of my illness, which has been fiery, feverish, with burning pain, mainly in my throat. During the illness, some thoughts occurred to me, in light of, in spite of, or instead of the solar flare possibility. One thought is that on a humanity level we are being dredged for the final drudge of karma that can be elicited before we have the opportunity for Ascension, if that is where we’re headed. My human mind has no idea, and I have no answers, all I can do is go with the flow. Bizarre things are happening in the world, even more so than usual, it seems. My dreams have been ultra strange during this illness, and I haven’t had the time or energy to analyze them. I’m okay with that, as it feels they are processing and processing…something.
Meanwhile, I feel more and more disconnected from humanity, and have no interest in the chaos that humanity pours on itself. The personal dramas, the work dramas, the political dramas… are all karma either being played out or transcended. Somehow I see beyond the drama, directly to the soul connection, the love, and can see that there is no reason for fear. Death is not to fear, none of what we experience in life or are about to experience is to fear. Life would be very, very different for every individual, and thus our collective communities if all decisions were made in love, instead of fear. This would also be a different life if Earth’s inhabitants had no fear of death. There was a particular scene that reminded of this, in Shirley MacLain’s miniseries Out On a Limb. I hadn’t read her book or watched the miniseries before last night, but I have read much over the past 15 years about near death experiences, out of body experiences, spiritual matters, etc., and have had plenty of direct experiences that have brought my thought process to where it resides currently. It was interesting to watch her metamorphosis, like a butterfly, through the show. She resisted every step of the way, it appeared, but finally came to the realization that what she was experiencing and hearing was real and she obviously took action on the information she received. Her experiences were more real than this weird world we live in and have collectively created for ourselves. I am very glad to be reminded of this in this entertaining manner, although our true nature is almost always on my mind.
I’ve also been reading a very interesting book on Dreaming and the Kaballah. The premise is that our awakened state is at least as much of a dream-time than our sleeping state. I’m not finished reading it yet, but I am sure I will have more to contemplate on this and the implications.
The theme this week in my awareness, it seems, is letting go. In A Course in Miracles, our lessons have been about letting go (“loose-ing”) of the world we have created. A client of mine’s main desire was to “let go” of the stuff he was ready to release so that he could move forward into his new life. Letting go is one of the most difficult things a person can do. What does it take to let go of the worry? To let go of the fear? To let go of having to know the how, or the why, or all of the answers. If we let go, what are we left with? Who are we without that fear? Who are we without that worry? Do we feel like we have to worry about something to be doing it “right”? Do we have to be doing everything right? If we let go of fear, are we out of our minds? Maybe so. Is that such a bad place to be?
In Chinese medicine, letting go is the action of the Large Intestine. We take in the events life presents to us (through the Stomach/solar plexus/Liver), let it churn a bit, send it to the Small Intestine for discernment, for sorting. Small Intestine is the energy of discerning the turbid from the clear, retaining the clear, and sending the turbid to the Large Instestine for discharge, or letting go. The clear is associated with the blessings, and what we want to keep to enrich ourselves and our lives. The turbid is the crap that no longer serves us and we need to let go. The energy of the Lung is directly related to the energy of the Large Intestine. Lung is about grief and sorrow. If we can grieve something, then we can let it go. Sometimes we don’t know that we need to grieve something, but our bodies will tell us.
Letting go is very freeing. When you let go, those things hold no power over you, you reclaim your own power, and can move forward in a powerful way, rather than a fearful way. Then your energy can be directed into creative endeavors. I realize this takes a lot of trust. Trust in yourself, trust that everything will turn out “right”. And “right” may not be our narrow perception of what is right for our lives, for we see very little of our full paths while we are incarnate and have very little knowledge of the meanings of our encounters and experiences. In my experience, once I realized that there is a far bigger picture than my small awareness, my prayers and intentions became more for the greatest good of all involved, and allowing those who had a far greater awareness than mine, to make it happen. I’ve since learned that these kinds of prayers often have the most profound outcomes, as I let go of my perceived best outcome. I am not to judge what is the best outcome for anyone, not even for myself. I can set my intention for what I think will be a great outcome, but I will always end it with “this or better”, as I do not know the lessons that need to be learned or the greater joy that can be experienced. It’s called surrender.
As the winds and the storm have subsided, I feel more at peace in my heart. I feel more connected to my spirit, and am calmer about the next moment. Solar flares or no solar flares, lunar eclipse or no lunar eclipse, and ascension or no ascension, I know that my life is dedicated to peace and love, and sharing and serving. Perhaps my time cocooning is helping me strengthen this connection to my Source and helping me remember the theme of surrendering to the Greater Good and allowing it to flow through me.
Creating a New Blueprint
The awareness of needing to create a new life blueprint came in Sept., 2013- this was written soon after.
2013 has been a whirlwind of change, of endings and new beginnings, mostly in relation to completing pharmacy school (finally!) and starting my new acupuncture, Chinese medicine and consulting pharmacy (?) clinic, which has been a wonderful endeavor.
The last few months have been quite interesting, and we'll see how well I can put it into words.
First of all, my final pharmacist licensing exam that I passed coincided with my youngest son's 21st birthday. I was quite aware of the culmination of active "parenthood" and the completion of all I strived for through pharmacy school existing on the same day, September 9. I passed, and now have my license, and Peter is now officially an adult. All of that multi-tasking that comes with parenting and comes with a difficult doctoral degree is over! This left me with actual entire unplanned days. I knew better than to fill them up, which I could easily have done with the new business and seeing patients, seeing long lost friends, or idling away on the Internet... but I didn't. I intentionally set out to use these days as "free" days, being in the moment, and whatever would come up, I would do it. It seemed like a nice transition, a necessary transition. My life has been run by syllabi and school schedules for the better of the past 20 plus years, including all of my sons' early school journeys. So strange to not have that structure!
About three weeks after my liberation from pharmacy exams and "parenthood" (although I know that never ends), my dear stepfather was diagnosed with gallbladder cancer. He is still undergoing tests to determine if surgery is an option, and to see if it has spread, and essentially to see what his options are for the rest of his life. Suddenly I saw one of the reasons why I had this new "free" time at hand. I am so very grateful and blessed to be able to accompany my parents on their doctor and procedure visits to assist with the question-asking, and provide another set of ears in these meetings. So much is still undetermined and the path has yet to be laid out for him. All in transition.
Meanwhile, I have been easing into a yoga quasi-routine, and 9 days ago attended a Yoga Nidra workshop that my husband, Richard, was invited to play his flutes to accompany the facilitator. I was so excited to do a very gentle yoga that was focussed more internally than on the stretching and movement. I was even excited about the possibility of a heavy-duty nap during it. I had no idea, really, what to expect, so went in with an open mind and a willingness to participate.
Delara led us through the gentle stretches and meditation to begin the session, and eased us into the internal exploration. Snores were beginning to resound through the room, in front of me, behind me - but not through me. Rather, I felt like I was hyper-aware, super-alert, completely relaxed, and definitely not napping or snoring. What happened next completely surprised me.
My Council of Twelve paid me a visit in this state of Nidra Yoga. In prior Council visits, at least in my awareness, their visits and information have come through dream states. One other time, I used 5-6 bags of Anchi crystals all around me during a meditation, and I was able to negotiate with them that way. This time, they had a message for me. To get caught up on some of my other Council encounters, read this blog.
They said, "Your end is here."
I had a few questions, and they answered in their best cryptic way. After the meditation I felt completely amazing, relaxed and emotionally detached.
The gist of the message from that meeting was that my end has come. I had no idea what that meant - did it mean that the end of my physical existence was once again looming? Were they talking about an ego thing? The end of my ego?
One of my questions to them, was "when"? I related it to my stepdad when I asked, since he is the only other person I'm aware of who is currently facing a big end. I asked, "Before him? After him?"
They told me "with him." What does that mean? I still don't know exactly, except they did inform me that had I completed my first contract and transitioned out of this life in my 30's, I had contracted with my stepfather to be one to assist from the other side during his transition from this life. So, since I continue on, and am still incarnate on this planet Earth, and am not on the other side to assist as originally planned, I am going to still assist him in his transition - somehow. I think they are actually still figuring it out, and that was part of the message.
Reluctantly, I passed all of this by my husband, an aware individual whose perspective I completely trust. He was pretty sure I'll be around for awhile, and that they weren't talking about my physical being ending now. That resonated, but it was still unclear what has ended.
I'll back up a little here, too. I have always been a proud omnivore, not eating a lot of meat, but retaining my right to eat it when I wanted to, loving eggs, and still eating dairy. Since the middle of July, my husband and I had been taking a Mental Mastery meditation class through Sai Maa's teachings. The first five sessions seemed to be familiar exercises and took us very slowly each week into greater awareness of our mental activity and how to shift it into positive manifestation. It was slow, that is, until the very last class. Suddenly (it seemed), we were being guided into a huge pineal activation, pulling the energy into our Heart center, and manifesting from that space. Our facilitator played his special crystal bowls during this meditation in our last class. We were supposed to create a vision in that space, and all I could see was light, light and more Light, and being in that LIGHT. There was no vision creation, there was nothing but light and my being in it.
And since that meditation, I have not been able to eat any meat, eggs, or dairy. At all. The night after that meditation, we went to my in-laws' house and my mother-in-law served her usual salmon, which I would normally not hesitate to devour. I could not eat it. I felt nauseous, and just knew I couldn't do it.
Things immediately shifted to a pure vegan diet at our house - my husband jumped right on board. I do not know how to explain this to people - the reasoning behind it - how long it's going to last - why, why why?
Dunno.
Although, in light of the Light, and the lightness of a plant-based diet compared to an animal-based diet may be exactly what I need if and as I am assisting my stepfather in his transition and in my own transition. It seems that is just the start. Maybe it helps me be lighter as I work in the etheric realm day and night. I am definitely sleeping better, much better (not that it was bad before - but now it's really good!)
I don't miss meat, or eggs, or milk (or wheat, or refined sugar)- and I've actually enjoyed the exploration of some amazing vibrant and delicious vegan meals. I love cooking, so this is a natural.
This morning, to gain some (or lots of) clarity - I visited an intuitive reader friend of mine who has been very helpful with gaining relevant information and needed clarity in the recent past. I quickly filled her in on the Council of Twelve visits through the years, and this most recent one. What she relayed to me resonated well, and I'm still digesting. They kept showing her a scroll, which represented my life, and my blueprint for my life. There was a blueprint (or two, maybe three) that was determined before I was born depending on the choices I would make at predetermined potential "exit points".
What has essentially happened is that I have completed my current and last pre-determined pre-birth blueprint, all contracts are complete, and there is nothing for the Council of Twelve to work with until I consciously come up with a new blueprint for the next part of my life. This is usually done prior to incarnation, but I need to do it while currently incarnated since I have steadfastly insisted that I remain through these negotiations with my Council of Twelve. My friend relayed to me that the next several weeks, especially, are super important to really lay the groundwork for my new blueprint, and it is vitally important to keep all fear, doubt, worry, idle thinking out of any of my intentions or non-intentions. Any wistful wonderings could make it into my blueprint. They told her that I need to check into my values, really see what I value and what I want to experience during the next bit of my lifetime, so that they have something to work with and put into action. I see a list, a specific list with everything I can think of that I want to experience. It seems there is no accident that I've been taking these meditation courses to help become very aware of what my mind is doing, so that I can head it off and away from any worry. It seems a bit of a daunting task to create this blueprint - this is way bigger than creating your reality in the New Thought sense, it seems. I have time - 4-6 weeks, and into the middle of February. By then, the blueprint will be set and will begin to manifest and unfold. Right now in this moment they have nothing to work with and wanted to let me know a bit of how to go about it.
How fun is this? I see a lot of travel, a lot of heart-centered connection. I told my mother earlier today that what I want to experience is to create something subtle and profound that will affect many in a new way. I relayed to her that the past and current writings and books all seem to say the same New Thought, New Agey things. Not very inspiring to me anymore, since I get it. Different views, same messages. Something new needs to be born and expressed - and the world is in need. Souls are in need - all of the transitioning I've seen all around me, as well as within me, shows me this need.
I am writing again - and it is through this means that I will create my new blueprint. I have not deeply explored my values for awhile - I feel I've been living through them successfully. I do believe that it is time to revisit and super-consciously examine and embrace them, and then translate it into meaningful experiences in my life to come. I have a task - and first I must sleep.
But first - I just remembered - I want to remember to document another message to me from the Council - first that in creating my clinic I was more successful than I have thought in connecting the two dimensions in a balanced way, and much more quickly than any of them thought I would. One of them, and not one of them, went and stood by my friend, to help her relay the message that they are so very proud of what I've done, in a very fatherly way - so much that it made me cry - to hear those words from a paternal orientation made all the difference.
My dear hubby has been telling me for months how proud he is of me, so very proud of everything I've done - maybe he has been channeling them - and I'm grateful and touched, but was triply touched to hear this message from the other side in such a direct way. Also, in order for protection, because I am wide open, I am to always feel this Guide's arms around me as I maneuver through this process of creating my blueprint and stepping into new life. I intend this protection and caring even if I might consciously forget it. I feel so blessed to be on this journey and to have this opportunity to create, all with loving support and enthusiasm!
2013 has been a whirlwind of change, of endings and new beginnings, mostly in relation to completing pharmacy school (finally!) and starting my new acupuncture, Chinese medicine and consulting pharmacy (?) clinic, which has been a wonderful endeavor.
The last few months have been quite interesting, and we'll see how well I can put it into words.
First of all, my final pharmacist licensing exam that I passed coincided with my youngest son's 21st birthday. I was quite aware of the culmination of active "parenthood" and the completion of all I strived for through pharmacy school existing on the same day, September 9. I passed, and now have my license, and Peter is now officially an adult. All of that multi-tasking that comes with parenting and comes with a difficult doctoral degree is over! This left me with actual entire unplanned days. I knew better than to fill them up, which I could easily have done with the new business and seeing patients, seeing long lost friends, or idling away on the Internet... but I didn't. I intentionally set out to use these days as "free" days, being in the moment, and whatever would come up, I would do it. It seemed like a nice transition, a necessary transition. My life has been run by syllabi and school schedules for the better of the past 20 plus years, including all of my sons' early school journeys. So strange to not have that structure!
About three weeks after my liberation from pharmacy exams and "parenthood" (although I know that never ends), my dear stepfather was diagnosed with gallbladder cancer. He is still undergoing tests to determine if surgery is an option, and to see if it has spread, and essentially to see what his options are for the rest of his life. Suddenly I saw one of the reasons why I had this new "free" time at hand. I am so very grateful and blessed to be able to accompany my parents on their doctor and procedure visits to assist with the question-asking, and provide another set of ears in these meetings. So much is still undetermined and the path has yet to be laid out for him. All in transition.
Meanwhile, I have been easing into a yoga quasi-routine, and 9 days ago attended a Yoga Nidra workshop that my husband, Richard, was invited to play his flutes to accompany the facilitator. I was so excited to do a very gentle yoga that was focussed more internally than on the stretching and movement. I was even excited about the possibility of a heavy-duty nap during it. I had no idea, really, what to expect, so went in with an open mind and a willingness to participate.
Delara led us through the gentle stretches and meditation to begin the session, and eased us into the internal exploration. Snores were beginning to resound through the room, in front of me, behind me - but not through me. Rather, I felt like I was hyper-aware, super-alert, completely relaxed, and definitely not napping or snoring. What happened next completely surprised me.
My Council of Twelve paid me a visit in this state of Nidra Yoga. In prior Council visits, at least in my awareness, their visits and information have come through dream states. One other time, I used 5-6 bags of Anchi crystals all around me during a meditation, and I was able to negotiate with them that way. This time, they had a message for me. To get caught up on some of my other Council encounters, read this blog.
They said, "Your end is here."
I had a few questions, and they answered in their best cryptic way. After the meditation I felt completely amazing, relaxed and emotionally detached.
The gist of the message from that meeting was that my end has come. I had no idea what that meant - did it mean that the end of my physical existence was once again looming? Were they talking about an ego thing? The end of my ego?
One of my questions to them, was "when"? I related it to my stepdad when I asked, since he is the only other person I'm aware of who is currently facing a big end. I asked, "Before him? After him?"
They told me "with him." What does that mean? I still don't know exactly, except they did inform me that had I completed my first contract and transitioned out of this life in my 30's, I had contracted with my stepfather to be one to assist from the other side during his transition from this life. So, since I continue on, and am still incarnate on this planet Earth, and am not on the other side to assist as originally planned, I am going to still assist him in his transition - somehow. I think they are actually still figuring it out, and that was part of the message.
Reluctantly, I passed all of this by my husband, an aware individual whose perspective I completely trust. He was pretty sure I'll be around for awhile, and that they weren't talking about my physical being ending now. That resonated, but it was still unclear what has ended.
I'll back up a little here, too. I have always been a proud omnivore, not eating a lot of meat, but retaining my right to eat it when I wanted to, loving eggs, and still eating dairy. Since the middle of July, my husband and I had been taking a Mental Mastery meditation class through Sai Maa's teachings. The first five sessions seemed to be familiar exercises and took us very slowly each week into greater awareness of our mental activity and how to shift it into positive manifestation. It was slow, that is, until the very last class. Suddenly (it seemed), we were being guided into a huge pineal activation, pulling the energy into our Heart center, and manifesting from that space. Our facilitator played his special crystal bowls during this meditation in our last class. We were supposed to create a vision in that space, and all I could see was light, light and more Light, and being in that LIGHT. There was no vision creation, there was nothing but light and my being in it.
And since that meditation, I have not been able to eat any meat, eggs, or dairy. At all. The night after that meditation, we went to my in-laws' house and my mother-in-law served her usual salmon, which I would normally not hesitate to devour. I could not eat it. I felt nauseous, and just knew I couldn't do it.
Things immediately shifted to a pure vegan diet at our house - my husband jumped right on board. I do not know how to explain this to people - the reasoning behind it - how long it's going to last - why, why why?
Dunno.
Although, in light of the Light, and the lightness of a plant-based diet compared to an animal-based diet may be exactly what I need if and as I am assisting my stepfather in his transition and in my own transition. It seems that is just the start. Maybe it helps me be lighter as I work in the etheric realm day and night. I am definitely sleeping better, much better (not that it was bad before - but now it's really good!)
I don't miss meat, or eggs, or milk (or wheat, or refined sugar)- and I've actually enjoyed the exploration of some amazing vibrant and delicious vegan meals. I love cooking, so this is a natural.
This morning, to gain some (or lots of) clarity - I visited an intuitive reader friend of mine who has been very helpful with gaining relevant information and needed clarity in the recent past. I quickly filled her in on the Council of Twelve visits through the years, and this most recent one. What she relayed to me resonated well, and I'm still digesting. They kept showing her a scroll, which represented my life, and my blueprint for my life. There was a blueprint (or two, maybe three) that was determined before I was born depending on the choices I would make at predetermined potential "exit points".
What has essentially happened is that I have completed my current and last pre-determined pre-birth blueprint, all contracts are complete, and there is nothing for the Council of Twelve to work with until I consciously come up with a new blueprint for the next part of my life. This is usually done prior to incarnation, but I need to do it while currently incarnated since I have steadfastly insisted that I remain through these negotiations with my Council of Twelve. My friend relayed to me that the next several weeks, especially, are super important to really lay the groundwork for my new blueprint, and it is vitally important to keep all fear, doubt, worry, idle thinking out of any of my intentions or non-intentions. Any wistful wonderings could make it into my blueprint. They told her that I need to check into my values, really see what I value and what I want to experience during the next bit of my lifetime, so that they have something to work with and put into action. I see a list, a specific list with everything I can think of that I want to experience. It seems there is no accident that I've been taking these meditation courses to help become very aware of what my mind is doing, so that I can head it off and away from any worry. It seems a bit of a daunting task to create this blueprint - this is way bigger than creating your reality in the New Thought sense, it seems. I have time - 4-6 weeks, and into the middle of February. By then, the blueprint will be set and will begin to manifest and unfold. Right now in this moment they have nothing to work with and wanted to let me know a bit of how to go about it.
How fun is this? I see a lot of travel, a lot of heart-centered connection. I told my mother earlier today that what I want to experience is to create something subtle and profound that will affect many in a new way. I relayed to her that the past and current writings and books all seem to say the same New Thought, New Agey things. Not very inspiring to me anymore, since I get it. Different views, same messages. Something new needs to be born and expressed - and the world is in need. Souls are in need - all of the transitioning I've seen all around me, as well as within me, shows me this need.
I am writing again - and it is through this means that I will create my new blueprint. I have not deeply explored my values for awhile - I feel I've been living through them successfully. I do believe that it is time to revisit and super-consciously examine and embrace them, and then translate it into meaningful experiences in my life to come. I have a task - and first I must sleep.
But first - I just remembered - I want to remember to document another message to me from the Council - first that in creating my clinic I was more successful than I have thought in connecting the two dimensions in a balanced way, and much more quickly than any of them thought I would. One of them, and not one of them, went and stood by my friend, to help her relay the message that they are so very proud of what I've done, in a very fatherly way - so much that it made me cry - to hear those words from a paternal orientation made all the difference.
My dear hubby has been telling me for months how proud he is of me, so very proud of everything I've done - maybe he has been channeling them - and I'm grateful and touched, but was triply touched to hear this message from the other side in such a direct way. Also, in order for protection, because I am wide open, I am to always feel this Guide's arms around me as I maneuver through this process of creating my blueprint and stepping into new life. I intend this protection and caring even if I might consciously forget it. I feel so blessed to be on this journey and to have this opportunity to create, all with loving support and enthusiasm!
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