Another good one for revealing Truth and finding self-compassion. We don't have to be great at everything, and really can't be...
...And, there are wonderful techniques and angels to help us process, overturn and conquer these false beliefs. I love Colorpuncture (and my mom!)
Daily Thought for Monday, February 2, 2009
by Master Djwhal Khul
May I see this day through fresh eyes, that the old places of imbalance in my life can be "reviewed" from the perspective of my Soul's mission.
Interesting this was yesterday's "thought" and I hadn't read it until today. I had an opportunity to see through "fresh eyes" an old place of imbalance in my life to "review".
I was in economics class where my tendency is to want to blend into the woodwork, just "do, be, and get". However, the instructor chooses to call on the students and put them to work, so being invisible is not an option. Yesterday I sat in the second row, and was asked to draw a graph on the board in the front of the class. I understand graphs, I get math, but I did not understand what he wanted, so "messed up" in front of the class, and corrected it. Then, because I was up in front of the class creating the graph, I missed taking the lecture notes that he was giving during that time. When I returned to my seat to catch up, focusing on what he'd already gone over, he came by my spot and asked me a question about what he was currently going over. Of course I had no clue, and since I feel clueless about the entire topic of economics I couldn't "wing it".
So, more humiliation, especially when he threw up his hands in exasperation as if I should have already mastered all of this. For goodness sakes. Thankfully he moved on to the next clueless person. I know I was not alone in that, however what it meant for me personally is definitely something I get to look at.
It triggered a time during a poster presentation I was giving in a class near the end of my Bachelor's degree. The professor asked me a difficult technical question that I froze on. I panicked, I couldn't think or breathe. I knew I knew the answer, but I was so caught up in the difficulty of the question compared to the "opinion" question one of my classmates (one of the professor's "pets") received. I know I made everyone uncomfortable with my frozen panic. My friend, Pat, was behind the professor signaling to encourage me. She knew I knew the answer, and later told me he probably asked me the most difficult question because he was aware of my intelligence. This made no difference to me at the time. This event yesterday triggered close to those same feelings of humiliation, "dumbness", and wanting to crawl into a hole.
Thankfully, after yesterday's class I went straight to my mom's for a Colorpuncture treatment to work on a rash I've had for a few weeks. She took a Kirlian photograph of my energy, and treated accordingly while I relayed the day's events to her. What showed in my photo was very interesting. It was clear there were boundaries that were being overstepped, and the "father imprint" had been triggered, and was "up". This makes sense to me, I can see where my relationship with my dad could have a play in that. I always wanted to be acknowledged for what I do know, and how acceptable I am, what a good person I am, etc. I wanted to be understood for who I am, not for what I don't know. I know a lot of it is embracing the fact that I cannot possibly know it all, and that it's okay to be in a situation where I don't know, and to accept it for myself in that moment. The "dark" side. Economics is not a strong suit for me, but a pre-requisite for pharmacy school. There's a reason I didn't take this class way back when. It's okay to have weaknesses, it's okay to not fully succeed in all areas. I know I will do fine in the class, and chances are good I understand more of it than I give myself credit. The healing is going to come through being okay in that situation, and to somehow move through those uncomfortable moments with a little more grace. Then again, does it always have to be graceful? I think it's actually okay to have awkward uncomfortable moments. Perhaps that is more fully experiencing Life.
Ah, so, how does this relate to my soul's mission? What gets to be healed and released? To be balanced? To be okay with it not being okay. Embrace the "fact" that I have both strengths AND weaknesses. To come up with a method, a mantra, or meditation, to directly help neutralize the strong panicky, humiliated emotional trigger in that situation, so that it is not a block, but rather a gateway to deeper understanding and compassion for myself and others.
Today I do feel a bit more whole, a bit more loving and compassionate toward myself. Far more than I did 13 years ago during that incident during my undergrad presentation. That went on for months, way beyond the class ending. I now know I can go back into class confident in who I am and where I'm at, and be okay in the now. I can stand a bit taller. And my rash is closer to being healed now that I'm a bit more comfortable in my own skin...
S.A. Lyonheart :-)
Showing posts with label balance. Show all posts
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Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Masculine and Feminine in Balance
"My internal masculine and feminine selves show respect and appreciation for each other."
Daily Thought for Tuesday, March 10, 2009
by Master Djwhal Khul
Daily Thought for Tuesday, March 10, 2009
by Master Djwhal Khul
The yin and the yang in balance and harmony with each other, is the key to great health. The yin, the feminine, being the stillness, the resting, the quiet, is utterly important for our physical, mental and emotional rejuvenation. It's about being present with ourselves, and going within to hear that "still, small voice", which sometimes isn't so small, especially the longer we ignore it. The feminine is our intuitive aspect, the receptivity of the Divine. Often in our society, and maybe many others, people do not go to this place of stillness, of receptivity, of rejuvenation so that they can have the energy they need for the yang, or masculine aspects of their lives: the activity, the expression, the action, the sharing with others, the creativity. If there is too much doing, and not enough being, then there is imbalance. I find this often in my practice, and it can be felt in a person's pulses. This can result in taking action where the action may not be so Divinely inspired and not coming from the most heart-centered place possible, thus causing more problems than creative solutions.
The opposite is also seen in practice and in life. Where there's plenty of stillness and intuition coming through, but no action being taken upon it. This can lead to stagnation and illness, both physical and emotional. I often feel in the pulses of my patients an oppressive energy that weighs down the vibrancy of the true pulse. I translate this into the energy of not taking action on something that needs taking action. The patient often knows what it is because they are so intuitive, and that's not where the energy is stuck. Sometimes they do not know because the energy is so stuck, and once it gets flowing again through their taking action in some part of their lives, then life overall begins to flow and they can make good, heart-centered decisions.
The perfect balance and flow is when the Divinely guided intuitive "hit" comes through, and we can express it and take action on it immediately. No questioning "what if, yeah but, if only..." just take action. Then we are in the flow of Life and this is the masculine taking taking action respecting the feminine intuition and stillness. It is also the feminine appreciating the ability of the masculine to take action.
There is much to be appreciated about the masculine and feminine being in good communication and mutually respecting each others importance. This can require a fair amount of Trust. Trust that our intuitive hits are truly coming from a higher place, and trusting that our taking action is for our greatest good. I think it's also about life being a place where we can try these things, lean into them, and see where they take us. This may seem risky, especially at first, but the more the inner masculine and feminine cooperate the more easily life flows.
There is much to be appreciated about the masculine and feminine being in good communication and mutually respecting each others importance. This can require a fair amount of Trust. Trust that our intuitive hits are truly coming from a higher place, and trusting that our taking action is for our greatest good. I think it's also about life being a place where we can try these things, lean into them, and see where they take us. This may seem risky, especially at first, but the more the inner masculine and feminine cooperate the more easily life flows.
This is often, or maybe even always, demonstrated through our relationships. We attract those who provide balance for us. For example, when I was young and newly married, I was the ultimate yin, or feminine and nurturing , aspect with very little of the masculine; whereas my husband at the time was the epitomy of the masculine, the breadwinner, the decision-maker, As I grew older, and more into myself, and embraced more of my masculine, which for me meant expressing my unique self, and trying to take action on those things that were important to me, this gave him an opportunity to look at and embrace the qualities of his feminine and receptive, nurturing side so that we could once again balance each other at this new level. Unfortunately, my masculine appeared to be too challenging for his hidden feminine, and at the time he wasn't willing to go there, so instead of growing together, we grew apart. I took my new level of feminine/masculine balance, or relative imbalance, out into the world of relationship, with interesting results.
There have been many shifts and changes over the years with my goal of being more balanced in my feminine and masculine aspects, and honoring both. I feel I've gotten myself to a good place. I am able to live an intuitive life, and can take action or express myself accordingly. I don't know what this means relationship-wise, since I am not currently in one that will mirror my level of balance of my inner feminine and masculine, but I look forward to finding out and seeing where my inner feminine and masculine might need more attention in mutual respect and appreciation.
Many Blessings to All of You, You Wonderful Beings of the Inner Feminine and Masculine!
S.A. Lyonheart :-)
Balance and Spiritual Liberation
9/17/14 - The world is our mirror of our conscious awareness. The following blog from Spring of 2009 is all about observing what is in my world, understanding it, and creating an intention for manifestation, as well as an example of a manifestation of intentions set forth with my prevailing conscious awareness that got me there.
It is a bit humorous to note, I now just realized, that within two weeks of writing this in 2009, I met my current husband, Richard, who is so very balanced, AND a Libra. :) One of the more gargantuan metamorphoses I've experienced. Successful Alchemy in the area of relationship!
Daily Thought for Sunday, May 3, 2009 by Master Djwhal Khul
My increasing balance fuels my capacity for spiritual liberation.
Daily Thought for Monday, May 4, 2009 by Master Djwhal Khul
Perfect balance is the open door to spiritual liberation.
Balance has definitely been a key word for me lately. I have been drawing into my awareness those who are extremists in various aspects of life, from the fella who weighed 300 pounds and clung with all his might to the canned foods and 6 boxes of expired oatmeal, and refused to listen to any music that had an inkling of flute. He was very slow and damp in all decisions and movement... to the vegan continual meditator, attached to the spirit world, and anti-the manifestations of this planet, and a few other unique extremists in between. The pendulum keeps swinging. Perhaps I am here to show balance to others, I dunno. I asked my mother yesterday if there's anything extreme about me that I am missing. At first she thought not, and then she said that perhaps the only thing I may be extreme in is enthusiasm.
en·thu·si·asm (
n-th
z
-
z
m)
n.
1. Great excitement for or interest in a subject or cause.
2. A source or cause of great excitement or interest.
3. Archaic
a. Ecstasy arising from supposed possession by a god.
b. Religious fanaticism.
[Late Latin enthsiasmus, from Greek enthousiasmos, from enthousiazein, to be inspired by a god, from entheos, possessed : en-, in; see en-2 + theos, god; see dhs- in Indo-European roots.]
Word History: "Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm," said the very quotable Ralph Waldo Emerson, who also said, "Everywhere the history of religion betrays a tendency to enthusiasm." These two uses of the word enthusiasmone positive and one negative both derive from its source in Greek. Enthusiasm first appeared in English in 1603 with the meaning "possession by a god." The source of the word is the Greek enthousiasmos, which ultimately comes from the adjective entheos, "having the god within," formed from en, "in, within," and theos, "god." Over time the meaning of enthusiasm became extended to "rapturous inspiration like that caused by a god" to "an overly confident or delusory belief that one is inspired by God," to "ill-regulated religious fervor, religious extremism," and eventually to the familiar sense "craze, excitement, strong liking for something." Now one can have an enthusiasm for almost anything, from water skiing to fast food, without religion entering into it at all.
I like to see enthusiasm as God, or the Universal Life Force expressing through me. I have the intention of making my life one big meditation, which actually simply means that I am present in whatever it is that I am doing, wherever I am being, whomever I am engaging with. Intentional meditation definitely makes this goal more attainable. I definitely do not have time nor interest in going into deep meditation for hours per day, for there is living to be done, and love to share and beings to encounter with heart. So, yes, I am enthusiastic about everything in my life I have set forth and created for myself. Everything from being a present mother, to pursuing my career goals, to communing with my friends and family. I am enthusiastic about continually learning and growing, and experiencing what I can through this short period of time on this planet in this reality.
Back to balance and the door to and capacity for spiritual liberation. As I wrote this last line I received a phone call from Creighton University offering me a seat in their upcoming starting PharmD. program. This is, by far, the most balanced option I had interviewed for this past winter. I had let go of it being an option because I had been placed on their wait list for an indeterminate amount of time, thus I moved ahead enthusiastically with my next best option which provided a far less balanced proposition than the distance learning program, but a slightly more balanced option than packing everything and leaving Peter behind to start school in Oregon. So, interesting timing, I say. Definitely taking the most balanced route allows more flexibility and time and energy in my school schedule to continue to pursue 1) my acupuncture practice and new clinic, 2) my meditative practices, 3) a routine of health and self-care, 4) hopefully nurturing and nourishing family and friend contact. These things are very important to me, and allow me to be a spiritual being manifesting my dreams in a balanced way.
Now as I sit and ponder my initial question to my mother yesterday morning about what these perceived extreme people making themselves known and might be mirroring to me, perhaps it was the choice I had made to go to UC-Denver's pharmacy school and the extreme attention that would take in my life because I would be enthusiastic about the program, wherever school ends up being.
Indeed, I am liberated from extremes, and find balance in my activities and my inactivities, in my knowledge and in my meditation, in my heart when I give and receive love, and share with others and share with myself. This is a very good place to be, a place of manifesting my dreams.
S.A. Lyonheart :-)
It is a bit humorous to note, I now just realized, that within two weeks of writing this in 2009, I met my current husband, Richard, who is so very balanced, AND a Libra. :) One of the more gargantuan metamorphoses I've experienced. Successful Alchemy in the area of relationship!
Daily Thought for Sunday, May 3, 2009 by Master Djwhal Khul
My increasing balance fuels my capacity for spiritual liberation.
Daily Thought for Monday, May 4, 2009 by Master Djwhal Khul
Perfect balance is the open door to spiritual liberation.
Balance has definitely been a key word for me lately. I have been drawing into my awareness those who are extremists in various aspects of life, from the fella who weighed 300 pounds and clung with all his might to the canned foods and 6 boxes of expired oatmeal, and refused to listen to any music that had an inkling of flute. He was very slow and damp in all decisions and movement... to the vegan continual meditator, attached to the spirit world, and anti-the manifestations of this planet, and a few other unique extremists in between. The pendulum keeps swinging. Perhaps I am here to show balance to others, I dunno. I asked my mother yesterday if there's anything extreme about me that I am missing. At first she thought not, and then she said that perhaps the only thing I may be extreme in is enthusiasm.
en·thu·si·asm (
n-thz-zm)n.
1. Great excitement for or interest in a subject or cause.
2. A source or cause of great excitement or interest.
3. Archaic
a. Ecstasy arising from supposed possession by a god.
b. Religious fanaticism.
[Late Latin enthsiasmus, from Greek enthousiasmos, from enthousiazein, to be inspired by a god, from entheos, possessed : en-, in; see en-2 + theos, god; see dhs- in Indo-European roots.]
Word History: "Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm," said the very quotable Ralph Waldo Emerson, who also said, "Everywhere the history of religion betrays a tendency to enthusiasm." These two uses of the word enthusiasmone positive and one negative both derive from its source in Greek. Enthusiasm first appeared in English in 1603 with the meaning "possession by a god." The source of the word is the Greek enthousiasmos, which ultimately comes from the adjective entheos, "having the god within," formed from en, "in, within," and theos, "god." Over time the meaning of enthusiasm became extended to "rapturous inspiration like that caused by a god" to "an overly confident or delusory belief that one is inspired by God," to "ill-regulated religious fervor, religious extremism," and eventually to the familiar sense "craze, excitement, strong liking for something." Now one can have an enthusiasm for almost anything, from water skiing to fast food, without religion entering into it at all.
I like to see enthusiasm as God, or the Universal Life Force expressing through me. I have the intention of making my life one big meditation, which actually simply means that I am present in whatever it is that I am doing, wherever I am being, whomever I am engaging with. Intentional meditation definitely makes this goal more attainable. I definitely do not have time nor interest in going into deep meditation for hours per day, for there is living to be done, and love to share and beings to encounter with heart. So, yes, I am enthusiastic about everything in my life I have set forth and created for myself. Everything from being a present mother, to pursuing my career goals, to communing with my friends and family. I am enthusiastic about continually learning and growing, and experiencing what I can through this short period of time on this planet in this reality.
Back to balance and the door to and capacity for spiritual liberation. As I wrote this last line I received a phone call from Creighton University offering me a seat in their upcoming starting PharmD. program. This is, by far, the most balanced option I had interviewed for this past winter. I had let go of it being an option because I had been placed on their wait list for an indeterminate amount of time, thus I moved ahead enthusiastically with my next best option which provided a far less balanced proposition than the distance learning program, but a slightly more balanced option than packing everything and leaving Peter behind to start school in Oregon. So, interesting timing, I say. Definitely taking the most balanced route allows more flexibility and time and energy in my school schedule to continue to pursue 1) my acupuncture practice and new clinic, 2) my meditative practices, 3) a routine of health and self-care, 4) hopefully nurturing and nourishing family and friend contact. These things are very important to me, and allow me to be a spiritual being manifesting my dreams in a balanced way.
Now as I sit and ponder my initial question to my mother yesterday morning about what these perceived extreme people making themselves known and might be mirroring to me, perhaps it was the choice I had made to go to UC-Denver's pharmacy school and the extreme attention that would take in my life because I would be enthusiastic about the program, wherever school ends up being.
Indeed, I am liberated from extremes, and find balance in my activities and my inactivities, in my knowledge and in my meditation, in my heart when I give and receive love, and share with others and share with myself. This is a very good place to be, a place of manifesting my dreams.
S.A. Lyonheart :-)
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